I exist, That's all I am.
To trivialize things, to trivialize your life. To deliberately grind your own life to a series of trivial meaningless things, just to escape from reality, just to shut out the world. Just to stop the noise getting to you. Just to make things dissolve, dissipate, fade, disappear until you do not have to think about them anymore. To make yourself into nothing in your own eyes, from a something, once upon a time.